As I mentioned in my last post, I have spent the last week looking forward to a trip to Calgary for our 3D Ultrasound. I pretty much had it worked out in my mind that it was going to be the best day of my life; we were going to see our growing baby inside my tummy!
Instead it turned out to be one hell of a roller-coaster of a day, and has been deemed the worst day of my pregnant life thus far. Let me explain,
First of all, I woke up emotional. Kenny went to the office to get some work done in the morning and I got in the shower so I'd be ready to leave by the time he got home. While he was gone, I got frustrated with Niki's never-ending bad behavior and began considering the idea that we might have to find her a new home before the baby comes. I phoned Kenny in tears (first tears of the day), he consoled me and assured me that he would be home soon and we would leave for Calgary. However, he was late getting home and we were late leaving for Calgary and in my emotional state, our lateness and the thought of missing our appointment brought on another bought of tears (second tears of the day).
Nonetheless, we picked up mom from work and made it to the appointment on time. Excited and just a tad nervous, we filled out the necessary paperwork and got into the room to begin our Ultrasound session. The lady got my tummy all jellied up and applied the transducer. The first thing she said to us was "Do you know what it is?" I said no, and before I could even open my mouth to say "And we don't want to know" she blurted out "It's a boy" and the kid's larger than life twig and berries was up on the screen for us all to see. I was devastated. Not only had I truly wanted this to remain a surprise until birth, I had specifically filled out paperwork before the Ultrasound stating that I did not want to be informed of the baby's gender. The rest of the session was a blur to me as I fought back tears of disappointment. The little guy didn't cooperate either and had his hands up by his face the entire time so we couldn't get a clear shot of his face. To me, the whole experience was a write-off. We left, I cried, and wondered why I just spent money to have the best surprise of my life ruined (luckily mom was there to console me).
The day was slightly redeemed by a great family dinner at Buddha's Veggie after the fact and an uneventful drive home to Lethbridge.
Today, I am still feeling a mix of emotions as I think about the little man that is growing in my tummy. He is healthy and happy and the fact that he's a boy (that's what we were hoping for!) is so exciting to me. However, I was really looking forward to that moment after birth where the hard work pays off and you get to find out the mysterious identity of the little ninja that's been living inside your belly for the past 9 months. I'm pretty sure that feeling of disappointment will fade soon enough and in a week the idea of knowing it's a boy won't seem quite so bad.
So, it's a boy! Bring on the blue... And here's a sneak peak at the little man.
It's a boy!
Nuzzling the back of his hand.
Rubbing his eyes.
Opening his eyes.
Nuzzling his arm.
Big feet!
Big yawn!
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